{EN} Woe Is Me

The she-cat grumbled softly to herself-she was rather sickly the last few days. At first she assumed she had a fever, but now she knows what is really wrong with her. Shouldn't she be happy? this is what she wanted after all, well. Yes and no; and because mostly the negatief parts are thought of so I shall elaborate on those. What if she did die? Or even worse her childen are going to be all stillborn? But the worst thing must be; what if her childeren are not what she wants them to be? They could be ugly or have some kind of deformities who knows! A sigh escapes her lips while her eyes wonder; her heart was aching for a presence she knew was gone, her brothers. He was brutally murdered by a cat from Bloodclan- or as they called themselves 'The Elite' At frist she tried to play it cool- not wanting to show to much weakness. But.. they say that time heals. Yet she feels worse and worse about it everything day that passes. it made her wish she was more open with her brother.And yes- yes she knew he is in starclan. That's not the problem, the problem is... will she go as well? She wasn't like him that way- grumpy but big hearted. The cat knew her heart was'nt pure. Something she suspected Starclan knew as well.

A lot of things had been happening lately and most weren't good. Bloodclan had killed a few Shadowclan cats and Skullpaw had tried to leave, which he was still angry about. However he tried to hide it as much as possible, since it wouldn't be good to show it too much. There were also good things happening, for example Tallstar finally getting his lives and of course the talk he had with Northernfaith. Of course everything would still have to go smoothly, but he hoped that it wouldn't be long before he would become a father. It all depended on how it would go of course and when Northernfaith would get pregnant, but he still couldn't help but be a little excited about it. He let his eyes roam around the camp and soon they found Northernfaith. "Hey," He said once he had walked over to her. He could still remember Warlord being killed by a Bloodclan cat. The tom had been the brother of Northernfaith, so it worried him a little. "How are you doing?" It was out of concern that he asked this.

The black-white cat noticed the brown tabby approach-quite perfecly on time, she could tell the 'big' news early then. considering he didn't have much time for her, but she understood. Tallshadow finally becoming tallstar and all those deaths. Must be quite a handfull. "Hey," greeted once he was close enough, she nodded and gave him an absent minded smile, "How are you doing?" he continued. The she cat waved with her tail and traced her eyes back to his, 'I have news' her voice was emotionless, for a reason she could not explain. Of course it wasn't sure that she was pregnant, a medicine cat had to confirm it first. Comfirm what she knew in her heart.

He twitched his ears shortly after hearing her words. She had news? Would it be good or bad? He hoped good and he believed it would be, since he couldn't think of anything bad. But then again he had been busy lately, so maybe something had happened that he didn't know of. It could also be good news of course, but he didn't want to get his hopes up. "What is it?" Was all he asked then, since he couldn't really guess what it was. He tried to look at her, searching for the answer if it was good or bad, but for now it wasn't clear to him which one of the two it was.

"What is it?" he asked- upon which she she forced a smile to appear across her lips,something that was rather convincing if she said so herself. She was an great actress when it came to fooling poeple about her real emotions. 'Im pregnant' she loudly proclaimed, hoping that others would hear her. despite her fears, she knew it was an triumph. If she gave birth successfully, her status would grow then it currently is. And Acorn could not get rid of her so easily, as he wished. But atleast for now that wasn't a problem.'We just need it to be confirmed by one of the cats of medicine'wich one? she really didn't care.

Pregnant? She was pregnant. A smile appeared on his face and he suddenly felt quite happy. Where he had been worried something bad had happened, it was something good after all. "That's great," He said with a smile. Then she told him that she still needed to confirm it, but it was probably true, so that meant he was going to become a father. "Shall we confirm it with Acefray then?" That seemed like the most logical answer right now, but that depended on what Northernfaith wanted to do.